Alright, so I just came back from my old apartment, and holy fuck was it difficult to be around bar. She tries to play it off like everything is fine and dandy...yah, right.
You just slept with my best friend, of course its going to bother me. All I want is a little respect. Sleep with whomever you want, but if you respect me, than you wouldnt sleep with my good friends.
I can't even see straight anymore.
I have no idea what I'm doing.
I'm lonely. :(
My plan tonight is to take a bunch of nyquil and try to fall asleep. I feel like I haven't really slept in months. On the walk home today I ran into Jack and the cute girl who works at the wine rack, and he mentioned that I looked exhausted. Ironically I had just woken up from a 3 hours nap, and tried to play it off as "groggy". I mean what was I going to say "uhmm, my life is pretty fucked right now, and its pretty much killing me." Yah, I'm sure he'll hire me if i said that. On the bright side, he mentioned that they were impressed with my resume and would probably be hiring soon. Fingers crossed.
I just need a little bit of good right now. Just a titch, to get me through this. I'm not even sure what that would be; something, someone to make me care about things again.
The only thing keeping me going right now is my friends. I must say if I can take anything from the 6 year relationship, its the people we met along the way. For so long I only relied on bar because I didn't think anyone else would care. I am still incredibly lonely, and I just want back that feeling I used to have.
I feel like such an ass.
This song just made me cry:(
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Sunday, January 07, 2007 at 7:48 p.m.
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