Whenever I go out I realize how big this little world is. Brent, I know your heart hurts and you dont think you will ever recover, but if you look past all that, there is so much life out there.
I guess I am just at a point where anything can happen and that whole concept sort of frightens poor ol' mr sweet.
When I was younger and people used to look at me I thought it was because I had mustard on my face or something. (still happens)
But these days, I see the looks and I dont know what to do with it. I guess the old self esteem dug a hole after all this breakup. But I mean, who? I know I hate being alone. All my roommates have significants. They watch movies, order pizza. Man, that used to be me. I almost took it for granted, which is unfortunate, but it happens. Cliche I know, but you never know what you have till its gone. I remember Ian yelling those words in my ear while I was in mid breakup, and its very very true. But, hindsight aside, who knows what'll happen. I just need someone I can make happy. I so enjoy making someone smile, and I am not the same person without having that.
Oh well. Suck it up and move on.
But I am sure I will be back in that relationship one day that people envy. I used to have it, but all good things come to an end.
Tonight was good. I feel alright considering.
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Sunday, January 21, 2007 at 4:28 a.m.
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