okay, so here I am sitting by myself.
It's almost like I got to to both extremes in life. I am either with people for hours on ends or without them. Its a bit disjunctive.p
Anyway, I am playing some goldfrapp really loud having myself a little solo dance party mulling over my existence at this point.
Ive tried to take myself back a bit from the last 3 weeks of my life, having a new relationship, not sleeping at home, having to think a bit different, and, I gotta say I am happy, but I hope I am not diving down a foxhole to never return.
I have some real questions to ask soon, and I hope to god they are answered admirably.
All I know that I SHOULD KNOW, is I can not let myself get caught up in a life that isnt mine. You are kind, you are considerate, but that doesnt mean you cant do what YOU want to do once in a while.
It's just natural and exactly what you are going to do tonight.
Lets hope it turns out well.
Im sick of bad hangouts and early work. Oh, and busses, its ruining my life.
OKAY.
GOOD LUCK BRENT
xo
BRENTSWEETBLOG
Friday, March 02, 2007 at 9:37 p.m.
Saturday, February 17, 2007 at 10:48 a.m.
Laurie gave me a tattoo last night at 10pm, while drunk in her computer room.
Now we have matching heart tattoos. We gotta get married now!
Now we have matching heart tattoos. We gotta get married now!
Wednesday, February 14, 2007 at 4:22 p.m.
Okay, so can we say, best week of my life?
Never have I hung out with someone so enjoyable for 168 hours straight.
We just separated 4 hours ago, and I already miss ms bennett.
Lets recall some of the fond memories of the last 7 days.
Renfrew road trip, with a video camera and pizza pizza makeout session.
Rushing Laurie to work every morning.
Shared showers.
Robotron
Jamming on an O2, and watching funny youtube.
7 consecutive sleepovers.
Red wine and the proposition
Lots of playtime.
Smoking butts in the wee hours of the morning.
Her incredible sense of humour.
Summertime plans
Drinking from the carton of applejuice
Powerviolence kitten teeth
our band
Cooking Thai food
Healthy breakfasts
GREAT PICTURES
videocamera action
Our fucking awesome first date video
HOLY SHIT BRENT.
way to find the best girl in ottawa, and keep her.
What we can accomplish together is amazing.
Cant wait to see ms laurie after work.
DID I MENTION SHE IS A MASSAGE THERAPIST, TATTOO ARTIST, GRAPHIC DESIGNER AND OVERALL TALENTED INDIVIDUAL? I cant get over it.
Thanks life for giving me hope again.
Can't wait for convertible road trips this summer.
TIME FOR ME TO START SAVING.
Never have I hung out with someone so enjoyable for 168 hours straight.
We just separated 4 hours ago, and I already miss ms bennett.
Lets recall some of the fond memories of the last 7 days.
Renfrew road trip, with a video camera and pizza pizza makeout session.
Rushing Laurie to work every morning.
Shared showers.
Robotron
Jamming on an O2, and watching funny youtube.
7 consecutive sleepovers.
Red wine and the proposition
Lots of playtime.
Smoking butts in the wee hours of the morning.
Her incredible sense of humour.
Summertime plans
Drinking from the carton of applejuice
Powerviolence kitten teeth
our band
Cooking Thai food
Healthy breakfasts
GREAT PICTURES
videocamera action
Our fucking awesome first date video
HOLY SHIT BRENT.
way to find the best girl in ottawa, and keep her.
What we can accomplish together is amazing.
Cant wait to see ms laurie after work.
DID I MENTION SHE IS A MASSAGE THERAPIST, TATTOO ARTIST, GRAPHIC DESIGNER AND OVERALL TALENTED INDIVIDUAL? I cant get over it.
Thanks life for giving me hope again.
Can't wait for convertible road trips this summer.
TIME FOR ME TO START SAVING.
Sunday, February 11, 2007 at 9:11 p.m.
okaaayyy so, im so stressed right now.
all these people are in my house, I cant move around that well, and i miss special lady.
I hope she comes soon, so i can get a kiss, and feel much much better.
COMMMMMOOOOONNN
all these people are in my house, I cant move around that well, and i miss special lady.
I hope she comes soon, so i can get a kiss, and feel much much better.
COMMMMMOOOOONNN
Saturday, February 10, 2007 at 7:07 p.m.
fate does exist, and im living it.
i can't believe how lucky i am.
i can't believe how lucky i am.
Wednesday, February 07, 2007 at 11:26 p.m.
Last night was a fun and difficult one.
If you dont understand a situation and fear you will never, should you just get out of it?
What if you want to give it a chance? Or have you already?
This was my mistake with bar so maybe I should cut my losses and cut loose?
I wish things weren't made to be so terribly difficult.
Steph said something worrysome to me tonight, which I agreed with.
Stop fucking around brent, get your act together and let others deal with their issues. You deal with yours.
I'm going to get a job and contacts this week.
If I don't, I have completely lost faith in myself, which is a scary idea.
Sometimes I wish someone would step in and get me started.
Boy I miss you sis. Ive been a mess ever since you left.
Time to go wallow in a bottle, and hope for better days.
If you dont understand a situation and fear you will never, should you just get out of it?
What if you want to give it a chance? Or have you already?
This was my mistake with bar so maybe I should cut my losses and cut loose?
I wish things weren't made to be so terribly difficult.
Steph said something worrysome to me tonight, which I agreed with.
Stop fucking around brent, get your act together and let others deal with their issues. You deal with yours.
I'm going to get a job and contacts this week.
If I don't, I have completely lost faith in myself, which is a scary idea.
Sometimes I wish someone would step in and get me started.
Boy I miss you sis. Ive been a mess ever since you left.
Time to go wallow in a bottle, and hope for better days.
Tuesday, February 06, 2007 at 11:29 p.m.
girl amelia passed out on me.
maybe im terribly unexciting?
hah.
this concussion I got is playing havoc on my brain.
I've had memory loss, blurred vision, nausea, lack of coordination and slurred speech.
Way to go sweetman.
Now, I am terribly reluctant to use stairs. I mean, you gotta use stairs, but sometimes when i come home, ill walk up on all fours. I think i traumatized myself a bit.
Apparently the gash on my head is 3-4 inches. Holy shit brent, you know how to wreck it up properly.
When I fell down the stairs, it reminded me of bailing while you are snowboarding, so I totally went home and got all my gear today.
This one time, I almost knocked out my eyeball while on the slopes. I think my goggles sliced open the bottom of my eye, and I had to be brought down in one of those lamo stretchers that attaches to the back of the skiiers.
I felt like a celebrity that for sure. I guess its better than when emily allen got knocked out on the slopes by some american kid, had to be airlifted to a hospital and got stuck with a 10 000 bill
Holy fuck does america suck sometimes.
Okay, I gotta decide how long I am going to wait before I try and wake up sleepy beauty over here.
I sort of half wanna leave, and write her a note, letting her know im still fucking drunk and getting down, but I understand she had a long day, I woke her up apparently, so ill let her have a little nap.
I hope she comes too and has some energy.
I cant even see what im typing right now.
CONCUSSION FOR LIFE
oh, and tonight I watched hackers......ACID BURN
best movie out there.
maybe im terribly unexciting?
hah.
this concussion I got is playing havoc on my brain.
I've had memory loss, blurred vision, nausea, lack of coordination and slurred speech.
Way to go sweetman.
Now, I am terribly reluctant to use stairs. I mean, you gotta use stairs, but sometimes when i come home, ill walk up on all fours. I think i traumatized myself a bit.
Apparently the gash on my head is 3-4 inches. Holy shit brent, you know how to wreck it up properly.
When I fell down the stairs, it reminded me of bailing while you are snowboarding, so I totally went home and got all my gear today.
This one time, I almost knocked out my eyeball while on the slopes. I think my goggles sliced open the bottom of my eye, and I had to be brought down in one of those lamo stretchers that attaches to the back of the skiiers.
I felt like a celebrity that for sure. I guess its better than when emily allen got knocked out on the slopes by some american kid, had to be airlifted to a hospital and got stuck with a 10 000 bill
Holy fuck does america suck sometimes.
Okay, I gotta decide how long I am going to wait before I try and wake up sleepy beauty over here.
I sort of half wanna leave, and write her a note, letting her know im still fucking drunk and getting down, but I understand she had a long day, I woke her up apparently, so ill let her have a little nap.
I hope she comes too and has some energy.
I cant even see what im typing right now.
CONCUSSION FOR LIFE
oh, and tonight I watched hackers......ACID BURN
best movie out there.
at 6:19 a.m.
alright, tonight turned out to be such a throw together tonight it was actually pretty awesome.
Jorge tries to call me, 4 times, I dont answer because I am in my underwear in bed, watching a movie.
Then a number calls that I dont recognize, and I will normally answer those just incase its someone that needs some assistance.
It turns out to be megan and her iqaluitian friend named sarah, i think, and a slew of other girls. They wanted to come over because as naya put it "megan really needs to see you" so I thought, why not.
I threw on my pants, jumped downstairs. Girls came over, we cracked a big bottle of wine and shared some awesome conversations.
Then I called jorge, because I thought, hey why not now? Im up, im hanging out, lets see what the old boy is doing. Turns out today is his birthday, so, dammmn, of course come over bro.
He ends up showing up with this sister pam, who is quite intelligent and wonderful btw, the other girls left, and the three of us talked closely the rest of the night
It was enlightening and uplifting to share a night with people who really KNOW life.
Not bullshit, but they came from somewhere. So did I. Ive seen things, they have too. We dont have to talk about them but it makes smart conversations that much easier.
I will end this not because my finger id broken, but, some people are really good. why cant everyone be??
love love love.
brent
Jorge tries to call me, 4 times, I dont answer because I am in my underwear in bed, watching a movie.
Then a number calls that I dont recognize, and I will normally answer those just incase its someone that needs some assistance.
It turns out to be megan and her iqaluitian friend named sarah, i think, and a slew of other girls. They wanted to come over because as naya put it "megan really needs to see you" so I thought, why not.
I threw on my pants, jumped downstairs. Girls came over, we cracked a big bottle of wine and shared some awesome conversations.
Then I called jorge, because I thought, hey why not now? Im up, im hanging out, lets see what the old boy is doing. Turns out today is his birthday, so, dammmn, of course come over bro.
He ends up showing up with this sister pam, who is quite intelligent and wonderful btw, the other girls left, and the three of us talked closely the rest of the night
It was enlightening and uplifting to share a night with people who really KNOW life.
Not bullshit, but they came from somewhere. So did I. Ive seen things, they have too. We dont have to talk about them but it makes smart conversations that much easier.
I will end this not because my finger id broken, but, some people are really good. why cant everyone be??
love love love.
brent
at 5:46 a.m.
why do our parents ruin us:?
� BRENT BRENT BRENT 2005
